Con(FAT)dence?!?
Recently I've come to discover that I am more confident than I thought I was.
I realized that through my plus size videos on youtube I have also inspired many lovely ladies to be more confident and its not that we all don't have that confidence with in its more that its hiding and sometimes gets consumed by how much we let other's words or ideas affect us. I have learned that regardless of my size people will always have something to say. . . but that doesn't mean that I should let it have any importance to me. I have learned that you can not only be body shamed/fat shamed by society but also by family. That I would have to say was one of the hardest things to go through especially because at the time that I was being fat shamed by family members I was younger and half of the size that I am now. I was 12 - 15 years old when I felt the true pressure of fat shaming and back then I was a size 11 and didn't even weigh half of what I do now. I let all the words get to me and really affect me to the point where I started secretly binge eating or eat when I was upset or sad which was a real turning point for me to when I really started gaining weight. Now we are here at a point in my life where "Yes I am FAT" but I no longer am the person I was back then. Now I don't care about anyones opinions and I especially can careless if anyone in my body fat shames me, which honestly now doesn't happen. I guess everyone realized that now that I really am fat there is really nothing they have to say to me. If back then I have confidence I have now I honestly don't think I would be sitting here typing this up. I know it is extremely hard when it comes to not letting words hurt you. I know because I've been through it but if there is truly anything I can tell you is that please try as hard as you possibly can to not let it affect you brush it off, even if you have to brush it off 5 times a day. At the end it will all be worth it. Know that no matter your size you deserve self love, respect, to feel sexy, to wear whatever you want, to have a boyfriend/girlfriend, to feel worthy, to be important, to have goals and dreams and most importantly to be treated as a human being.
I hope these word are helpful to anyone reading this.
Check out my video as well if you need to hear a bit more about my story and basically my road to being confident.
I hope these word are helpful to anyone reading this.
Check out my video as well if you need to hear a bit more about my story and basically my road to being confident.
